In 2011 I suffered from anxiety and depression so severe that I often contemplated taking my life. Among other battles in my life up to that point, this one definitely took the cake. It was truly that “life or death” season.
One day, during this particular season in my life, I went up to the alter at church for prayer. A husband and wife wrapped their arms around me and asked how they could pray for me.
I was so tired and didn’t have much left in me so I just told them to pray however they felt led. The woman started to pray for me and stopped. I opened my eyes and lifted my head and we locked eyes. She stared deep into me and said, “I was praying for you and all I could see was a mighty warrior. You are that mighty warrior. You were standing firm with your feet locked and your stake in the ground.
Can you picture that? The vision The Lord gave this woman changed my life. I see this woman covered in dirt, clothes are ripped, hair a mangled mess, and yet she is strong and standing firm, like “You can kill me if you want but I ain’t movin’ from this spot. This is MY territory.”
The fact that I had a stake in the ground is so significant. A Stake is a strong wooden or metal post with a point at one end, driven into the ground to act as a boundary mark. This woman’s vision showed me that I was not playin’ around spiritually. Although I felt beat up, forsaken, lost … my spirit was like “oh heck no! Girlfriend is not goin’ down without a fight”
Let me show you a different definition of the word Stake: historically it was a wooden post to which a person was tied before being burned alive as punishment.
One stake. Two different uses.
It was my stake and it was my choice what I did with that stake. Do I stick it in the ground fiercely and push the powers of darkness back or do I tie myself to it and burn alive?
I decided to believe the vision as an image of encouragement from God. I pressed in harder and I told The Lord, “I will cling to you until this thing breaks.” Day in and day out, although it hurt like hell, I chose to believe Him. My fear did not hinder the promises of God. Even though my mind was all over the place, I surrendered to God and chose to take the anxious thoughts captive and make them obedient to Christ.
God always has the miracle. He hasn’t run out. It is our choice to believe God for the miracle. The Lord has equipped each of us with a stake but it is our choice to use that stake for victory or defeat.
I believe that God has made each of His daughters a mighty warrior with stake in hand. But far too often, when the road gets tough, instead of planting our feet firm and forcing our stake into the ground, we tie ourselves to it in fear and wait to be punished.
The scripture that we claim to believe says in 1 John 4:18, “There is not fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.”
This is a heart issue. This is not about circumstances and being dealt a bad hand. Ask yourself what do you fear and why? Perfect love drives out fear. What areas of your life have you not surrendered? What pieces of your heart are you holding back?
Where is your stake? What have you decided to do with it? It’s your stake, you’re your choice – nobody else’s. Look past your circumstances, stop collecting all the wrongs in your life, stop being a victim. It’s time to get down off that stake, take your position, put your stake in the ground, and hold steady.
How? You turn your heart and focus to Jesus fully and you wait with great faith and expectation for the miracle.